Just filed my name change petition today! And here is the video I made about it :)
I miss sex… I’m at this awkward stage where I have no idea when I’ll even have sex again. This is a very confusing place for me to be emotionally, as I’ve always been a very sexual person by nature. And now I’m almost too afraid to try, because any scenario I think of would probably be triggering and overwhelming. Has anyone had experience getting past this?
Yesterday and today I covered my laptop with Sharpie art. Totally worth the silly amount of time I put into it. :D
becomingaaronkai asked: can i ask? are you female assigned at birth? If so you look very masculine. also hi! Glad you had fun at MBLGTACC
Yes I’m faab, but very early on in my transition. Thank you! That always makes me happy to hear :)
Wow!
I haven’t been on Tumblr for a LOOONNNGGG time! No Bueno!
This past weekend I went to MBLGTACC in Ames, Iowa (the Midwest Bisexual Lesbian Gay Transgender Ally College Conference). It was incredible!
I definitely feel much more motivated now and my identity has been strengthened from that conference. Good stuff!
My therapist and I have been discussing hormones more lately, as it has become a bigger deal to me lately, and after being in Iowa I feel that my decision has been made! I’m hoping I can start by this summer, that is my goal. :)
My other goal is to get back to posting things on here! I’m also considering making a Youtube channel to discuss gender and my transition. We’ll see what happens. I miss all of you!
Going to bed finally. I feel like this is one of the more masculine looking shots of me recently… So of course I had to post it! <3 Wes
I love how thermal tops look over my binder :) felt confident today. Went to lunch with my mom and used the men’s restroom. Then we went clothes shopping and i used the men’s dressing room. It was great!
Anonymous asked: Wes, you barely know me. We met once & it was brief but in that time I could tell that you are a genuine and kind-hearted person with a lot to offer the world. Your spunk, energy, and humor are infectious and I'm sorry you're struggling right now. Please stay strong and know there are people out there rooting for you.
Thank you so much for the kind words. There are just entirely too many things snowballing on me right now and I’m beyond overwhelmed. My life now compared to my life a year ago has done a total 180. Some things for the better, some things for the much worse. I don’t know how to cope with things currently. I was doing so well for a while and this past week has made all of that feel like a rug pulled out from under my feet. My heart is crumbling, and good god I hate being depressed and emo like this.
But thank you again.
I don’t know how to feel okay right now. I don’t think i have it in me.
Saturday was rough.
Found out my ex-fiance is kind of seeing someone now. They’re not dating or anything… but he told me about it in case I see them together sometime. Because he’ll probably bring her to the bar where I perform at some point.
This is really tearing me apart right now. Especially because last november was when he proposed, and now I feel like he’s completely moved on.
Don’t know what to do.
